Here to be me and share the reality of my beautifully chaotic life

I love my life. But my life is chaotic, busy, and often exhausting. It's not glamorous, but it's just right for my family of five. I work from home full-time and also watch my 2 year old. Most days, I drive my kids to and from school, except every other Friday - which my husband has off from work.

I work some late nights and early mornings, my husband leaves super early for work. We're crawling out of a financial hole, but definitely crawling.

I am creating this space for me to rant and rave and keep myself from imploding and maybe even help to limit my yelling just a bit. We'll see how it evolves.

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I want this to be a space about how happiness can only ever be now, that while we have to work on ourselves every day, we also have to be happy with ourselves every day. We can only ever start right where we are at. 

I'm starting this blog right where I am at. I don't have a ton of direction, but I have a fire in my soul and a drive to do this...this is what I am meant to do. Write from the center of my soul.

Two quotes have really stood out for me lately:

"Life is not about finding yourself; it's about CREATING yourself."

"Start where you're at."

After feeling lost and like I had to find myself for the last, oh, I don't know, 7 or 8 years (OMG - that's a long time to be lost), I finally get that I have to decide who I want to be and then get after it. And I want to be free to write from the center of my soul. 

Oh, yes, one more quote I saw recently struck a chord:

"Make art of what you do."

My writing shall be my magic paintings, the thoughts from the center of my soul my paint brush. And I will strive to have it be worth something - be helpful, be USEFUL- to somebody else.